Weekly Report: #11 My Honest Thoughts

So we've had a few months unlike anything we've ever seen in our lifetimes and hopefully will ever see again. I've stayed silent for the most part on this subject since things started going crazy, because I wanted my site to be an escape for you the readers and not just another site talking about what is going on in society. I wanted you all to have an escape for a short period of time and in a small way try to help you forget any stress you might be struggling with at this time. With that being said this will be the first and only time I talk about the current pandemic troubling society. 

Dear Reader, 

First off, I have the utmost respect for the healthcare personal that are on the front line helping combat this pandemic. I don't know how they have as much strength, will, and determination as they do, when you think that they reached their breaking points they just move to another level or some hidden energy. I had respect for healthcare personal before this, but now I idolize them for the sacrifices they're making during this time of crisis. 

I'm going to really try and put into words what this situation means for me and I hope that it helps someone or just gives you a minute or two of a breather, because I mean this from the bottom of my heart. The last time I felt the way I feel right now is when I wrote about losing my grandfather on October 2nd, 2017. I've got goosebumps, because for once I will be open and honest. It is difficult to say: 

From the bottom of my heart I'm extensively and humbly grateful to each and every person on the front line this means healthcare personal, police, EMT, Military, and fire. Anyone who is risking their personal health to help fight back this virus don't just deserve praise you deserve the spotlight and recognition for helping save lives every damn day. I will be honest I've had arguments with people, because plenty of people have gotten mad at me for not taking things seriously, but the reality is I've been trying to help those I care about the only way I know how, and that is by distracting them even if it means them getting mad at me, because at least then they're not worried about the virus. 

Over the last month I've worried a time or two about the spread and the virus as a whole, but then I just keep trying to be positive and optimistic it has helped. The more we let the negative energy control us the harder it is to ignore the elephant in the room. I will be more then happy to talk to anyone who is having a rough day or stressed out from the current situation, because I want to be a beacon of hope for during a crisis. Even if it's an argument at least you wont be thinking about your other problems you will focus on being pissed at me. 

Originally this was suppose to be talking about how the pandemic has effected the wrestling business, but I changed my mind and wanted to write about how it has effected me. I've feared it a time or two, but this is testing our will as humans and we all have the strength to overcome. I know I'm fortunate to still be able to be working right now as I work for Stop and Shop in Produce. I know that some might think that I'm out on the front line too and deserve praise well I don't want it. You want to make me happy thank you healthcare personal, thank an officer, firefighter, EMT, anyone risking their health deserves the spotlight. Even though I might be I don't care I don't feel like I deserve the spotlight as much as they do. 

Thank you from the bottom of my heart thank you for everything that you are doing now and do during our normal time. We as people wouldn't be able to live without you and can't put into words how grateful we are for you. I'm a worrier and my anxiety is a trouble sometimes, but know that someone out there is rooting for each and everyone of you to be okay. I've worried some days more than others ever since someone I think of as a brother became a New York Police Officer, and have gotten anxiety (shed tears at thought of getting that phone call) but I believe in my heart he was trained well enough to know how to protect himself. 

It's been a long time since I've opened up like this, but a wise man told me I should do it more and I thought this was the right time to do it. We will beat this back, because we are stronger then this pandemic if anything let this bring us together. Pray for each other, fight for each other and support each other!! I'm gonna stop now before I start crying!!! Thank you!!!