I Have a Story Part 1

Eight years ago I was sitting in an office for my first job and wasn't sure what to expect but did everything that was asked of me and actually was grateful for the opportunity. It was in that office when I started doing research, and when I started writing. Earlier in that year I opened this site and over complicated everything. I didn't want the easy, I wanted the long winded anything I could put my own twist on, because I wanted to get noticed. 

In that office I wrote a book with the intention of publishing it and even would do podcast spots later on promoting the eventual release of the book. Fast forward nearly a decade later, both books are still somewhere in my online archives that have never been released. For three years I kept trying and pushing everything I had for this site and I achieved a lot more than I thought I would've. I've heard over the years it's time to move on and do something more, give your time to something more worthwhile. 

Reality is that's a tough pill to swallow when you realize that something you tried to build hit it's potential and will not grow any further. I wasn't being pessimistic! I was being realistic and to a fault I'm normally realistic and not optimistic. The reason those books never were released wasn't because I didn't believe it was because I didn't ever think they were complete. Again I went long winded attempting to add and add and add more instead of just going straight for the shortest gap between two points. 

I think of this as a journal entry and something that shows the heart of this brand still exists even if I don't write at all nowadays. I can still let how I'm feeling in a moment flow out. I applaud those around me who have the flair to want to do for themselves and not follow the path already laid. It's not that I do it's that I never thought about another way to go. It was either going the easy way or just never caring enough to really go all in. In poker going all in on one hand is the biggest risk you take, I don't take risks ever!! I'm not a risk taker never have been, I'm calculated and logical but also realistic to a fault. 

I don't blame those around me for not feeding into a pipe dream! I don't blame myself for spending as much time as I did on this dream. Without this "pipe dream" honestly I don't believe that I'd be where I am right now as a person or a man. If I could tell something to the 20 year old kid sitting in that office at my first job I'd tell him to write that book, you might not publish it, but write anyway and enjoy every single second of it.  

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