In the past I have mentioned the struggle I have with depression and anxiety which sometimes gets a little hard to handle. However, watching wrestling, thinking about booking wrestling, or playing a wrestling game calms me down. Wrestling has always been that one thing I can turn to as a way to help me relax and eliminate the bad feelings. Fact of the matter is at this point I have been watching for almost 20 years and have seen so many incredible talents debut and I have even been fortunate enough to see some wrestlers entire careers. Knowing that is a little insane in my opinion because it really puts into perspective how long you have been a fan; for example I remember when Edge was a new face in the company and then I remember watching when he retired.
Over the years I have been fortunate enough to be witness to a number of incredible moments which has also gave way to a long list of memories which I wouldn't trade for anything. You see everyone has those moments where they remember where they were when something happened and all of those for me are tied to wrestling. For example, I remember where I was when I found out Eddie Guerrero died, I remember where I saw my first PPV, and I remember when I first watch the Austin 3:16 promo.
I have been called an encyclopedia of wrestling knowledge and I wouldn't have it any other way as it doesn't matter how many times I get frustrated watching it'll never go away. The excitement to see a big match, the energy I get going to a live show, the ability to put aside the "mark" and just be a fan, and most importantly the passion; all these things will never go away because they are things that make me who I am and wrestling is the reason why I am me. Overall it might be crazy to say but I don't know where I'd be without pro-wrestling and though I might only write about it in a way it has given me two passions for the price of one. As now I don't only have pro-wrestling to love, but pro-wrestling has allowed to gain a love of writing as well which really puts the icing on the cake.